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| oh and one question. Why can I get hit on and have people tink that i am hot in Vegas, where there are way more hot girls but in the good ol OC, I am just one of the guys and am so freaking cute, etc. I hate being the friend. It can be really depressing. | | |
| So now I have somewhere to live. That is exciting. I am staying at the dorms for free. This is very good news. Life is busy and slightly depressing. For some reason I am lonely. All I want right now is someone to care for me and to love me the way that I want to be loved. Am I so hard to care for? I guess that I am just feeling sorry for myself. I just feel like everyone deserves happiness. Finally a lot of things in life are going right but one thing. That one thing used to be good and then that went to crap. Now, that one thing went to crap and everything else is good. Quite a paradox, right? I just can't wait for the day for me to fine someone who can put up with me and who can love me. I need a man, someone who can acknowledge their failings and someone who can own up to their mistakes and try to fix them. I know this is a typical phrase but I am sick of dating boys who can't take care of themselves much less me. I know that I am independent and all of that but i still like to be cared for and all of that. I guess I am just feeling sorry for myself but I just can't get over the loneliness. I don't know what to do and i know that I sound pathetic but I just felt like writing this. no one has to care and I am sure that no one does but i thought I would write this anyways. Goodnight. | | |
| Life right now is interesting. Work wise I feel like I am important and that maybe what I am doing is going to have an impact somewhere, sometime. Like that is what God wants of me, but then when I get started thinking about my personal life i want to cry. Things have just gotten so screwed up and i feel like I am detached from friends and from where I am supposed to be. I feel like a failure in my personal life. This sucks. I really feel lost. Life can be so depressing.... | | |
| So I didn't get the apartment, which means I have no real place of residence. That also means getting a hold of me will be a lot tougher than normal. Also, the only way to get a hold of me will probably be by calling me. If you have my # feel special, if not well good luck... Let's see where I am staying tomorrow night... | | |
| I don't think I am going to get the apartment....I don't know what I am going to do. I don't want to go home. I can't go home. I hate this waiting game. This blows. Life really isn't being all that nice to me right now. Blast | | |
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